Strangers Juxtaposed against Something Else

"I bought you the vitamin E pills, you can come to my office to collect"
"OK, I need to collect some of my clothes too"
"OK, your white pants is in my office. Come visit Pairah and Yumi, no one will be home this week, come and have dinner with them"
"OK, we'll see how my schedule is this week. Will you be in town?"
"In Vietnam now, not around the whole of next week too"
"OK, I'll be in KL until Wed"
"OK"
":)"

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I was meant to tread the water, now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you, another piece backs away
You give me something, that makes me scared alright. This could be nothing, but I'm willing to give it a try.
Please give me something cuz some day I might know my heart
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream




Something that happened over the last few days made me think: Am I a bad communicator? Do I really run away from my problems and buckle in stressful situations? Actually, the truth is I do. Many times I run as far as my feet will take me, not because I like running, but I cannot tolerate confrontational situations. Too much spite, leaves me in turmoil. I can't think straight, can't talk right, can't function properly. It's as if my circuit malfunctions. I am trying to remember if I was like that with Ming as well, perhaps so, but I can hardly remember, we almost never fought because all I did was give in and give in and give in... I remember only getting angry at him like 3-4 times in 4 years?!?!

Maybe that was partially why things ended the way it did.

But I find it very hard to raise my voice at someone I care about. Perhaps that's a way you will know you mean something to me because I have no trouble being a complete bitch to people I care not for, i.e bad service staff, people who reek of alcohol, cheaters.

You can say I'm, a dreamer, but I'm not the only one...