Today Cheryln gave me a word from the Lord. Months ago, I wouldnt have expected this from her - but today, I find myself so encouraged by her. Her love for Christ, her growth, her sensitivity to the Spirit. I praise God that He has raised her up, the He will do a mighty work in her life.
As I was walking home from the MRT station tonight, I had many questions for God. I asked him several things that bothered me and I told him to remove ALL the idols in my life, and only when they are all gone, will I be able to live in His perfect will for me.
And just as I got home, I received a message from Cheryln, that pierced through my heart. Jesus hasn't forgotten me. It is so encouraging to know that God is not a respecter of persons. He has used a newly revived Christian to speak to an old fart christian like me. And the words she told me were was the exact answer to the questions I have asked God about.
Thank you for listening to me Jesus, and for answering me in Your still, small voice. I know the road will not be easy, but as I choose to put you as #1, you will bring me to the place You have called me to be.
I thank God for a few people I know God has placed in my life for this season: Shimei, Cheryln, Fatima. You girls are a blessing. I thank God everyday for you. We are going to raise up a mighty generation together for the Lord God Almighty!
JOY
That is the only things that fills my entire being. Thank you for revealing you truth to me and allowing the people I love to share this passion for the cross.
You are doing a new work!
You are doing a new work!
Sentuh Hatiku
Pastor Ong told me the story behind how "Sentuh Hatiku" was written by Jason.
I was so inspired as I heard the story, and although the lyrics was only related to me a bit later, I couldnt help the tears streaming down my face. What a beautiful song. Decided to google translate it since I've become a pro at translating things online now, but in the end managed to find the actual translation from some website.
This song was written by Jason, and inspired by his friend, who was raped by her father at a very young age... and then was locked up in a cell by him. She questioned God in her darkness, why he had forsaken her, and even attempted suicide. She was kept in that cell for a very long time before she finally managed to escape and ran home. Upon reaching home, she found her father bedridden, unable to speak, on his deathbed. At that moment, she felt the love of God upon her life, and she forgave him, but only by the strength of the Holy Spirit.
As I heard this song, it was just so beautiful, even now, as I type this, I am greatly touched by how Jesus can mend relationships, how he can restore, rescue. How he can, with just one touch, heal past wounds. My eyes cant help but fill up with tears, inspired by the love of a Saviour.
FATHER, TOUCH MY HEART
How much I loved everything that was done
Never alone to run this life
always be with me
How much I realize in my this life
You always give the best plan
because of love
Father touch my heart
Change my life to be a brand new one
Like pure gold
You mold my vessel of heart
Father teach me to understand
a love that always give
Like a flowing water that never been stopped
Your love o my Lord
is never been stopped
***
I remember at the last session of MSG, Kathy had a word of God for me. She said I was born to worship, I was born a worshipper, and she saw me as a jar filled with oil of annointing, and through me, I would be able to be an angel to others. She pictured me with angel's wings, singing praises to God. That is exactly what I want to be. I want to be a worshipper for Christ -- thats all that matters to me, does that even make sense? I want to be at his feet daily, where everything around me grows strangely dim, where nothing else matters anymore, but just being at his feet, telling Him how much He means to me, how I would be absolutely NOTHING without his grace and LOVE.
Kathy also said to me that the Lord wants me to forgive, forgive those who have wronged me, hurt me, made me cry, made me feel as if I was worth nothing, as if I was just a passing vapor to them, those who insulted me, who maligned me, who treated me as if I meant nothing, who cheated me, made me belief their lies. I still bear a lot of hurt to this group of people, but when Kathy revealed to me what the Lord told him, I was deeply moved. Who am I to bear a grudge against someone else, when the Lord has forgiven me of all my sins? Who am I to claim that I am more righteous than God, that I have the right to be angry at others, who I am? And at that moment, I broke. I told the Lord that I would forgive, because I was forgiven much, that I would love the unlovable, those that hurt me, because He first loved me despite all my sins. And then and there, I released the hatred I had in my heart, and exchanged it for the deep deep love of Christ. The Lord would be my judge, he would be the one exacting punishment on those who have sinned against me deliberately, I would leave it all in His hands, because He truly knows best, He knows that I struggle to do the right things many times, but I revere Him, and I know I have to surrender my entire being to Him, only then will he be able to mould me to be the person He has planned for me to be.
Lord, you are my protector, though men may try to rise against me, you uphold me, you set my feet upon solid ground, no weapon formed against me will prosper. If you are for me, who can stand against? And although it is so difficult to learn to love those you have called me to forgive, I do it, because I love you more than anything in this world. You are my everything.
Psalm 91
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”
I was so inspired as I heard the story, and although the lyrics was only related to me a bit later, I couldnt help the tears streaming down my face. What a beautiful song. Decided to google translate it since I've become a pro at translating things online now, but in the end managed to find the actual translation from some website.
This song was written by Jason, and inspired by his friend, who was raped by her father at a very young age... and then was locked up in a cell by him. She questioned God in her darkness, why he had forsaken her, and even attempted suicide. She was kept in that cell for a very long time before she finally managed to escape and ran home. Upon reaching home, she found her father bedridden, unable to speak, on his deathbed. At that moment, she felt the love of God upon her life, and she forgave him, but only by the strength of the Holy Spirit.
As I heard this song, it was just so beautiful, even now, as I type this, I am greatly touched by how Jesus can mend relationships, how he can restore, rescue. How he can, with just one touch, heal past wounds. My eyes cant help but fill up with tears, inspired by the love of a Saviour.
FATHER, TOUCH MY HEART
How much I loved everything that was done
Never alone to run this life
always be with me
How much I realize in my this life
You always give the best plan
because of love
Father touch my heart
Change my life to be a brand new one
Like pure gold
You mold my vessel of heart
Father teach me to understand
a love that always give
Like a flowing water that never been stopped
Your love o my Lord
is never been stopped
***
I remember at the last session of MSG, Kathy had a word of God for me. She said I was born to worship, I was born a worshipper, and she saw me as a jar filled with oil of annointing, and through me, I would be able to be an angel to others. She pictured me with angel's wings, singing praises to God. That is exactly what I want to be. I want to be a worshipper for Christ -- thats all that matters to me, does that even make sense? I want to be at his feet daily, where everything around me grows strangely dim, where nothing else matters anymore, but just being at his feet, telling Him how much He means to me, how I would be absolutely NOTHING without his grace and LOVE.
Kathy also said to me that the Lord wants me to forgive, forgive those who have wronged me, hurt me, made me cry, made me feel as if I was worth nothing, as if I was just a passing vapor to them, those who insulted me, who maligned me, who treated me as if I meant nothing, who cheated me, made me belief their lies. I still bear a lot of hurt to this group of people, but when Kathy revealed to me what the Lord told him, I was deeply moved. Who am I to bear a grudge against someone else, when the Lord has forgiven me of all my sins? Who am I to claim that I am more righteous than God, that I have the right to be angry at others, who I am? And at that moment, I broke. I told the Lord that I would forgive, because I was forgiven much, that I would love the unlovable, those that hurt me, because He first loved me despite all my sins. And then and there, I released the hatred I had in my heart, and exchanged it for the deep deep love of Christ. The Lord would be my judge, he would be the one exacting punishment on those who have sinned against me deliberately, I would leave it all in His hands, because He truly knows best, He knows that I struggle to do the right things many times, but I revere Him, and I know I have to surrender my entire being to Him, only then will he be able to mould me to be the person He has planned for me to be.
Lord, you are my protector, though men may try to rise against me, you uphold me, you set my feet upon solid ground, no weapon formed against me will prosper. If you are for me, who can stand against? And although it is so difficult to learn to love those you have called me to forgive, I do it, because I love you more than anything in this world. You are my everything.
Psalm 91
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”
Time with my dad
It has been a long time since I've gone out with my dad for dinner alone. I don't even remember the last time to be honest...
But today was one of the rare days where I could shut down my laptop at 730PM and just do nothing. I guess on hindsight, God must want me to rest more, stress less, which is why he has somehow given me an "out" of my situation.
I flew back from KL this afternoon, a day earlier than scheduled. For after 6 months I can say, my fingers were no longer as tense as they were, I felt also, free-er and relieved that I can have a semblance of my normal life back.
March will be a last month of heavy travel, then post March, I will feel like a Singaporean all over again. And I'm excited.
Dad told me about how the Lord has blessed him during his youth -- how he built up his career, how he took risk, how he is what he is today, not because of his strength, but because of the mercies of the Lord.
I agree -- similar to me. With my strength, I can do nothing, but with the Lord, I find myself under the shadow of his wings, I find myself where I am today only because of the grace of the Lord. Oh how good he has been.
I very much enjoyed listening to his "speeches" -- I hardly get any one on one with family anymore -- we are all too busy, maybe my fault, I have been too wrapped up with work to do anything contrary to it. I look at him, he is not the young person he is anymore, but he is still the same person -- my dad.
I pray the Lord will give us more time as a family together as work stress will diminish soon. I feel a weight lift off my shoulders, and I believe God will lead me to where he has called me to be.
But today was one of the rare days where I could shut down my laptop at 730PM and just do nothing. I guess on hindsight, God must want me to rest more, stress less, which is why he has somehow given me an "out" of my situation.
I flew back from KL this afternoon, a day earlier than scheduled. For after 6 months I can say, my fingers were no longer as tense as they were, I felt also, free-er and relieved that I can have a semblance of my normal life back.
March will be a last month of heavy travel, then post March, I will feel like a Singaporean all over again. And I'm excited.
Dad told me about how the Lord has blessed him during his youth -- how he built up his career, how he took risk, how he is what he is today, not because of his strength, but because of the mercies of the Lord.
I agree -- similar to me. With my strength, I can do nothing, but with the Lord, I find myself under the shadow of his wings, I find myself where I am today only because of the grace of the Lord. Oh how good he has been.
I very much enjoyed listening to his "speeches" -- I hardly get any one on one with family anymore -- we are all too busy, maybe my fault, I have been too wrapped up with work to do anything contrary to it. I look at him, he is not the young person he is anymore, but he is still the same person -- my dad.
I pray the Lord will give us more time as a family together as work stress will diminish soon. I feel a weight lift off my shoulders, and I believe God will lead me to where he has called me to be.
The Life God Blesses
I recently read a book called "The Life God Blesses".
Indeed it is good to be walking as best I can in the footsteps of the Lord and drinking from His rivers of life.
In KL this whole week, and praying the Lord will give me renewed strength, and the creativity and inspiration to excel in my job.
Lord, you know the desires of my heart, and you keep my secrets hidden, in my secret worship with you.
Oh how I long to rest continually under the shadow of your wings.
In God I trust...
Indeed it is good to be walking as best I can in the footsteps of the Lord and drinking from His rivers of life.
In KL this whole week, and praying the Lord will give me renewed strength, and the creativity and inspiration to excel in my job.
Lord, you know the desires of my heart, and you keep my secrets hidden, in my secret worship with you.
Oh how I long to rest continually under the shadow of your wings.
In God I trust...
Psalms 91
Psalms 91 is such an awesome chapter of encouragement and tells abundantly of God's love.
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." 3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. 4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. 5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. 7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. 8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. 9 If you make the Most High your dwelling-- even the LORD, who is my refuge-- 10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. 11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; 12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. 14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. 15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him."
Psalms 91:1-15
I wish I could have spent more time meditating on this before! Bring a huge smile across my face!
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." 3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. 4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. 5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. 7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. 8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. 9 If you make the Most High your dwelling-- even the LORD, who is my refuge-- 10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. 11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; 12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. 14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. 15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him."
Psalms 91:1-15
I wish I could have spent more time meditating on this before! Bring a huge smile across my face!
Call unto me
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile." Jeremiah 29:11-14
This has been one of my favourite verses since I can remember but just in the last month, I have been shaken up a bit in my spirit man and reminded time and time again in such a short span of time, confirmed by multiple people that I need to move beyond this into Jeremiah 33:3.
3 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.' Jeremiah 33:3
As I seek to continue to digest and apply this in my life, I pray windows of heaven will open and as God closes one door, he surely will open another.
My eyes remain on the cross. He is my shield, and all I feel is peace and joy, all over me, I can hardly contain it.
This has been one of my favourite verses since I can remember but just in the last month, I have been shaken up a bit in my spirit man and reminded time and time again in such a short span of time, confirmed by multiple people that I need to move beyond this into Jeremiah 33:3.
3 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.' Jeremiah 33:3
As I seek to continue to digest and apply this in my life, I pray windows of heaven will open and as God closes one door, he surely will open another.
My eyes remain on the cross. He is my shield, and all I feel is peace and joy, all over me, I can hardly contain it.
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