I wish I had loved u more, before
Nothing wakes you up until you actually have someone close to you fall ill -- terminally ill. Ironic how you stat to treasure someone so much more when you know you have a limited time to spend with that person. Is it human nature to disregard someone until you know their time to go is fast approaching?
I'm upset -- ANGRY at cancer. Angry at it for cannibalizing on the good people. For being blind in its choice -- not knowing how to recognize evil for good. Cancer is so random. I've known people who have been smoking a pack a day since eternity and never fall it. Yet there are those who live "organically", never drink or smoke yet catch diseases of every nature. CANCER, I hate you.
A few days back, I found out Auntie Irene has cancer -- or so it is very likely. 15cm tumor in her womb, and now her lungs are cloudy -- not a good sign at all. Surgery next week. The news hit me like a block of bricks. Young divorcee, with a son and no job, having to have to fight not only for her life, but for the very right to be loved.
It just upsets me when good people fall ill -- its so undeserving. I wish I had loved her more, before. Not when it's too late... No use crying, just have to fight back tears and bite those quivering lips... some things just happen for a reason, no use questioning, only leaves you more jaded.
Have you told someone U care for that they matter? Don't wait for tomorrow, sometimes, even that may be way too late...