Sentuh Hatiku

Pastor Ong told me the story behind how "Sentuh Hatiku" was written by Jason.



I was so inspired as I heard the story, and although the lyrics was only related to me a bit later, I couldnt help the tears streaming down my face. What a beautiful song. Decided to google translate it since I've become a pro at translating things online now, but in the end managed to find the actual translation from some website.

This song was written by Jason, and inspired by his friend, who was raped by her father at a very young age... and then was locked up in a cell by him. She questioned God in her darkness, why he had forsaken her, and even attempted suicide. She was kept in that cell for a very long time before she finally managed to escape and ran home. Upon reaching home, she found her father bedridden, unable to speak, on his deathbed. At that moment, she felt the love of God upon her life, and she forgave him, but only by the strength of the Holy Spirit.

As I heard this song, it was just so beautiful, even now, as I type this, I am greatly touched by how Jesus can mend relationships, how he can restore, rescue. How he can, with just one touch, heal past wounds. My eyes cant help but fill up with tears, inspired by the love of a Saviour.

FATHER, TOUCH MY HEART
How much I loved everything that was done
Never alone to run this life
always be with me

How much I realize in my this life
You always give the best plan
because of love

Father touch my heart
Change my life to be a brand new one
Like pure gold
You mold my vessel of heart
Father teach me to understand
a love that always give
Like a flowing water that never been stopped

Your love o my Lord
is never been stopped

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I remember at the last session of MSG, Kathy had a word of God for me. She said I was born to worship, I was born a worshipper, and she saw me as a jar filled with oil of annointing, and through me, I would be able to be an angel to others. She pictured me with angel's wings, singing praises to God. That is exactly what I want to be. I want to be a worshipper for Christ -- thats all that matters to me, does that even make sense? I want to be at his feet daily, where everything around me grows strangely dim, where nothing else matters anymore, but just being at his feet, telling Him how much He means to me, how I would be absolutely NOTHING without his grace and LOVE.

Kathy also said to me that the Lord wants me to forgive, forgive those who have wronged me, hurt me, made me cry, made me feel as if I was worth nothing, as if I was just a passing vapor to them, those who insulted me, who maligned me, who treated me as if I meant nothing, who cheated me, made me belief their lies. I still bear a lot of hurt to this group of people, but when Kathy revealed to me what the Lord told him, I was deeply moved. Who am I to bear a grudge against someone else, when the Lord has forgiven me of all my sins? Who am I to claim that I am more righteous than God, that I have the right to be angry at others, who I am? And at that moment, I broke. I told the Lord that I would forgive, because I was forgiven much, that I would love the unlovable, those that hurt me, because He first loved me despite all my sins. And then and there, I released the hatred I had in my heart, and exchanged it for the deep deep love of Christ. The Lord would be my judge, he would be the one exacting punishment on those who have sinned against me deliberately, I would leave it all in His hands, because He truly knows best, He knows that I struggle to do the right things many times, but I revere Him, and I know I have to surrender my entire being to Him, only then will he be able to mould me to be the person He has planned for me to be.

Lord, you are my protector, though men may try to rise against me, you uphold me, you set my feet upon solid ground, no weapon formed against me will prosper. If you are for me, who can stand against? And although it is so difficult to learn to love those you have called me to forgive, I do it, because I love you more than anything in this world. You are my everything.

Psalm 91
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”